Writing this right now makes me want to puke — but in a good way.
I have had a deep fear of truly being who I really am.
In my mid twenties, I started having strong intuitions. Sometimes it was getting a deep feeling that something really bad was going to happen (a gut feeling of heaviness the morning of September 11, 2001 as an example), an intuition to pause before moving forward on booking a vacation (and then learning why the pause was so important), or the smallest of things like knowing when someone is going to call me or someone else.
While these intuitions were cool, they were also scary.
I began to tell my husband when strong intuitions came, kind of like proof that I wasn’t crazy. Now he’s used to them.
What was this intuition thing? And why did I have them?
I tried to put it all away in the filing cabinet of my mind and body, but the filing cabinet will not stay shut.
I am fully embracing my intuition, my inner voice, and for some reason putting it in writing and sharing it feels extremely vulnerable but also freeing.
I’m developing a coaching program that will allow you to cultivate a deeper relationship with yourself, live from your heart, listen to your body, and trust the universe will be guiding you towards the life you were meant to live.
This quote from Marianne Williamson speaks to me differently now: “Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?”
If you have a deep fear of being the you that you’re meant to be, I want to talk to you. If you are interested in hearing more about my upcoming program, send me an email at: tami@tamiconklin.com.
